I graduate TOMORROW!!!

I am so excited! It is actually here. I have passed all of my courses and even recieved the highest grade in the class (94%) in my last class. I can't believe it is over. I still will have to pass my boards but other than that it is OVER!!! Yeah!

SO CLOSE!!!

I can hardly believe that I am graduating in 16 days!!! It is really close and seems so far away! I am sad to see this part of my life end and so afraid of the future. Maybe only because I have a deep fear of the unknown. Anyways, I just wanted to pop on here and say YES I AM STILL ALIVE!!!! SHEESH PEOPLE!!! :)

OH YEAH!!!! I DID IT!!!!

34 Days until G-day!!!!

Wow! It is almost over and what a journey it has been. I am sad that it will be over and excited/terrified of my future. I got a great job in the Critical care unit of a local hospital with an awesome internship. When all is said and done I will be certified in Critical Care and Trauma. The sign on bonus and pay are mind blowing! I am happy that I can finally replace the van as it is on it's last legs (tires). Snapfish: Share Interstitial:Registration That is a link to all of the pictures from our last two years together. I know you won't know any of the people in them but you may be able to get a glimpse of what I have been doing. There are some of me in there. I am amazed to see the ones of me from first semester! I have lost 30 pounds in the last 3 months and I am ashamed of how I let myself go. However, I am much happier now with carving time out for myself every morning and doing something that is good for me.
Actually, one day I missed the gym and was trying to get this ladies blood pressure. The machine kept giving me an error and I tried to replace her cuff, turn off the machine and turn back on, etc. Then the lady finally says to me. "If you connect this tube to the machine, will it work better?" OMG, I felt like an idiot! So I ran and got a strong cup of coffee and finished my day. So no more missing the gym. I get up at 0345 every morning and head out the door. It is a great way to wake-up! I am much happier.
Well, that was a quick update...Today is Emma's b-day and she has requested pancakes for dinner so I must go cook what she has ordered. It is HER day ya know....

An Emotional Sunday

Alright so I graduate in like 7 weeks. I have been having a very difficult time with finding any excitement in my upcoming graduation. It took me a while to figure out what the heck was wrong with me and now I know. It all came through a tearful Sunday. I couldn't figure out why I was so emotional as it was not time for PMS yet I just needed to cry. So in order to avoid questions from my housemates I hoped in the shower, blasted music so loud that the world around me would be drowned out and sat in the bottom of the shower floor and cried until I felt better. So what the heck is my problem? Well, all I have known for so long is being a student/mother/wife. It is so quickly coming to and end and I am unsure of what my future will hold and just how many changes will be coming down the line. Do I even know who my children are anymore? Then to add to it, this summer it seems as though I lost a VERY important relationship in my life. I have wanted many times to pick up the phone and call because I have good news or just to share my life as I had for the previous five years but all I understand is that because my son was SO disrespectful and I was too blind to see it I was thrown away. It still hurts worse than I wish it would. I was told that time heals all wounds but this one is not healing and I wanted nothing more than to graduate with thid person there because I found so much support/love/reality/truth with them. So as I cried yesterday I couldn't get the picture out of my head of the last time I saw them and just how freakin painful it still is and how I will graduate without them there. It dampens my excitement and at times I could hardly care that I am graduating and yet for eveybody else that has supported me I should try to find that excitement inspite of it. It is just really difficult. So this is my rant...I am sorry for talking in so much "code" but the name of the person I am talking about is not for others to know just to tell you how I am feeling. "k"

Baaaaadddd Mommy Nurse!!!

Today was the first day of my LAST semester of Nursing School. I will be graduating in 4 months 4 days and 18 hours from now. I am excited and exhausted! I started my job in the ICU/CCU about 1.5 months ago and I LOVE every minute of it.

I got out of class and there was a missed call on my cell phone from Tayler. He was hurt and wanted me to call him. So I called the school and he said that while playing basketball he hurt his finger. So I asked him a few questions including what hand. Since it was his right hand I told him he would stay at school because it was not his writing hand. He did tell me his finger was black and blue but in my stupidity I did not think much of it. He had drama practice at 5:30 tonight so I let him go to After School care so he could hang out with his friends for a bit. Around 5:00 I brought him dinner and actually visually assessed the finger. GOOD GOD! It was huge and so discolored. Yeah, not just a sprain I was sure. So instead of Drama practice I took him to urgent care. They ordered X-rays to confirm the initial diagnosis of a break and we will get the results on Monday. Then splinted his finger and sent him home. IF the break is in the joint or growth plate he will have to see an orthopedic doctor and if not he will just wear his splint for 3-4 weeks. I took a picture of his hand 10 hours post injury so it is not near as bad looking at it was 6 hours earlier but I thought I would share his first broken bone (HA HA!!!)